Upswing Sonata

everything i write will be forgotten

sometimes i like that

and i stare up into the sky inverted

gasp gazing

aloud feeling

time is passing

here i am

still breathing

i was caught off guard by this explosion

ramp up into mania often caught by masquerading depression

this time let loose

when i swing back is there a medication for that

or am i just fine and the illness is over there

feelings per minute calculated in agape mouths

trying to notice before it runs away

take me away in this direction

one million directions to go I say

take them all at once

rip apart flesh fabric

attack the sound of decay

i crumble at the sight of a finished line

jump quick back contemplate how to cross

what hack

might get me to know how to die

and feel alright

not tonight

not tonight